Foolish ME
I am feeling more and more foolish when the days goes by... being rebellious had made me done alot of mistakes and most of all.. things which I shldnt do for it will make me regret... I jolly well know that its wrong for me to ruin myself like this but i really cant stand the way I'm being played by u.. u had me into a circle which u urself had wanted to cut it off months ago or mayb even years ago.. i always hope u can give me some ray of lights but the moment i had it, u kept it away.. this is really torturing for me!!!
U dunno anythin abt love cos u scare to be hurt by me and this is really somethin selfish... this time i had been real damn in ur hand.. u had me high up and jus a release, u end me up on the ground.. again and again.. i hav told myself to trust u and know that u will change to a better person but the thing is U HAVE NEVER LOVE ME COS U DUNNO WAT IS LOVE!!!
I REALLY DUNNO WAT U WAN OR EVEN WAT U THINKING... COS U ONLY KNOW HOW TO TELL ME "U WONT UNDERSTAND LA" OR "IF U WAN TO THINK LIKE THIS THEN GO AHEAD"...
I HAD ENOUGH OF UR FUCKING HACK CARE ATTITUDE AND UNAFFECTIONATE LOVE TOWARDS ME... FOR ALL I KNOW U ARE THE WORSE MAN I'VE EVER MET... U SAID THINGS WHICH SHLDNT BE SAID AND EVEN HUMILATED ME BY SAYING THIS IS MY RETRIBUTIONS... YES THIS IS IT... LET IT BE MY RETRIBUTIONS AND I HOPE ONE DAY U WILL GET IT TOO... THE MORE U DUN WAN TO BE HURT THE MORE U WILL BE HURT BY UR NEXT ONE...
U ALWAYS COMPARE ME TO OTHER GERS WHICH I DUN LIKE AND IF ONE DAY I WERE TO COMPARE U & HIM... WOULD U FEEL GOOD?? U ONLY THINK FOR URSELF AND SELDOM THINK OF HOW I FEEL.. NOW U HAD UR WAY AND WITHOUT ME U COULD BREADTH SO FREELY..
HERE IM GOING TO SAY SORRY TO U FOR ALL THE DISTURBANCE CAUSED TO U... I WILL NEVER BOTHER U AGAIN AND PLEASE DO NOT CARE ME ANYMORE FOR ALL I HAVE FOR U IS HATRED!!!
Precious LynN
Wednesday, March 30, 2005